The Blue In My Eyes Seeks The Blue In The Sky

I want to celebrate in the warm weather so badly, but I know that if my exultation level gets too high, it’ll snow on me again. The weather has gotten so warm that I don’t have to have a jacket outside and I can just do with the many layers I have on. I could probably shed one or two layers in my bottom half and still be okay as well. And I can see the sky again. I know how Fred feels in So You Want to Be A Wizard when he’s underground and can’t hear the stars. I bask in the sun whenever I can, and my arms itch with that spring feeling of shedding old winter skin and being exposed to air.

I wore pigtails today. I don’t know why I haven’t worn them in awhile, but it just hit me walking outside to the bus stop that I could wear them. So I did. All winter, I think, I just haven’t thought of it as an option. My options have been down or back in a braid all these months, and I don’t know why it’s liberating all of the sudden, but it is.

I also think it’s funny that I got a certificate for free underwear at Victoria’s Secret last week in the mail. I suppose I got it because they want to promote the bra that goes with it to their frequent customers, and I would defintely fall into that category. They also want to flatter us by letting us know (even though they didn’t print it out at all) that we are frequent customers. Oh, and you have to go into the store to redeem the certificate, so it acts as bait there. And it works. I’ll suggest a trip to the mall with Amelia this week to go pick some out and as an excuse to hang out with her. It’ll be fun, if she’s free on her day off. It was a good weekend, full of enjoyable sex, and the dinner thing Just’In and I have been planning went well. He cooked the main peice de resistance; I just made the juice, the soup, and set the table. I had an enjoyable Sunday conversation with dad. I haven’t talked to him in awhile. And I’m rereading the Wrinkle in Time series that we got as a gift, so I nibbled on a half a book there.

February is almost over. Depression is banished for another season. The sun is inevitable. It can’t stay away forever, and it shouldn’t. I’m always surprised on how my feelings are connected with the weather and the seasons.